Happy new year: a train of thought

IWell, happy new year.
Just got back from a new year's eve celebration in Borobudur Temple, Central Java, Indonesia. It's almost 4 in the morning.
If I have to choose one word to describe it, that would be "well-organized". The event was fine. It just, I'm not really recognize the performers. But when I knew the song I definitaly sang along.
The ticket price was reasonable. We got "light dinner" and "welcome drink" as well!! They also provided chairs for us to sit below a tent just in case the rain suddenly came. But the white chair and the tent make it really bad for selfie, because people who see that picture will think that we were on a wedding reception.
At the end of the night, they gave us lantern and we lit the lantern with fire so it would fly. Some people tag their wishes through their lantern. And apparantly, my lantern could not make it until the sky because it ran out the fuel.
What's that supposed to mean?

Well, I have mixed feelings.
It's not becasue of the lantern. It really is other things.
I personally, not really a celebration person. It's not that birthdays and new years which make me change. Not older nor wiser. But some events in my life will. Might be a tragedy. Might be an achievement. That could be be anything.
I am not a kind of person who will make a resolution for the next year, nor a person who make a wish upon a flying lantern or a candle on the birthday cake. I never take birthdays and new years seriously. I, indeed, never take life seriously.

Well, I'm starting to think.
2015 had been the most amazing year for me. That year was an aufklarung phase in my life. And that was not my plan either.
Something happened. That "something" took someone from me, but gave me some time in return.
That time gave me chancea to tried and learned many things. And at the begining of this new year, I think I am confident to say that, "I have found who I am, and who I want to be".

Well, I'm starting to worry.
Maybe with all that happened to me last year, I started to become grown up, because I started to think and also worry.
My limit for fooling around is over, and now is the time for me to take my life serously.